Just Enjoy the Show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go can't do it alone
I've tried and i don't know why
Slow it down make it stop or else my heart is going to pop
'cause it's too much yeah it's a lot to be something i'm not
I'm a fool out of love 'cause i just can't get enough
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go can't do it alone
I've tried and i don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but i don't show it
I can't figure it out it's bringing me down
I know i've got to let it go and just enjoy the show
The sun is hot in the sky just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the signs and synchronize in time
It's a joke nobody knows they've got a ticket to the show
Yeah i'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go can't do it alone
I've tried and i don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but i don't show it
I can't figure it out it's bringing me down
I know i've got to let it go and just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go can't do it alone
I've tried and i don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but i don't show it
I can't figure it out it's bringing me down
I know i've got to let it go and just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show just enjoy the show
I want my money back i want my money back
I want my money back just enjoy the show
I want my money back i want my money back
I want my money back just enjoy the show
This song pretty much sums up how I've been feeling for the past few days.. *sigh... Also.. I've been thinking since I make myself too stressed thinking about my photography and just want to sing it all away all day all week always, maybeeeeee I'm meant to be a singer, not a photographer.. then, it'd be my parents who'd be stressed by my chosen path not me.;P 
The Show Music Video :D

Tomorrow, Tomorrow.

Today was a good great day! After 2 days of being absent, I finally went back to school. Then almost immediately, we went on an impromptu interview with the gmanews.tv chief photographer Mr. Joe Galvez who was very much willing to share beyond our prof's proposed questions. Our friend who lived near GMA then had all 8 of us over for lunch! Score!!!:) Our The Fort shoot for the next class was cancelled. I was really looking forward to it. ._. It was raining anyway and I loooove the rain so it's ok! :) I got to visit the library and finally a toy store. I've been wanting to for weeks! ..to buy bubbles!:)) Finally, a shoot to stand by with for altproc! Wee! I was stuck in about an hour of traffic for a distance that could have been walked for 10 minutes.. but tonight I'm going to sleep excited. (not just because I very unexpectedly saw my crush2an today,;"D ..shucks! I'm so high school!) but because tomorrow I will take my not-so-awesome but hopefully my-most-awesome-to-date portrait!:D *crossed fingers. :D

P.S.

 Syllabication

today a discovery

haiku I suck at

Fineeee. take 2!:))

Another day's end

Such a sweet relief to know

A fresh start's coming

bwahaha. I'm just getting to know haiku okayyyyyy.. :P

P.P.S. I scratched out good and changed it to great *about the day* because as I was closing my e-mail tonight, I just saw again Jasmine Star's reply which I read still a little half asleep this morning. No wonder I was in a good mood all day!:D

She called me girlfriend too!!!!<333

Cybertopia and Living.

Sometimes I think I'm not meant to live in this highly technological era. I'm not really a fan of facebook, I very much prefer to enjoy things slowly, & I like more personalized hand-written notes to e-mails. Don't get me wrong. I appreciate the genius of men behind all these developments. It's just hard to keep up (a.k.a. not get addicted) that in trying to do so, I think I've become more of a cybertopian than an earthling. Un/fortunately, Cybertopia has its ways of telling me to move out too:

"We are always getting ready to live, never living." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Those who make the worst use of their time are the first to complain of its shortness." -Jean de la Bruyere

"Take more photos. Be Fearless. Put yourself out there." -Chase Jarvis

"Follow your dreams. Fail." (*in the context of make mistakes & learn.) -Jasmine Star.

Gaaaahhh. Tomorrow I'll look for myself. offline. I wonder where that will be. :P

....If only I knew where to go.

One thing I know I wish would go though: My rashes. Got the German Measles this weekend. ._.

Ok. I took that photo only to show my mom how red/extra healthy looking with not my extra rosy face, not just cheeks.. Again. Just for my Mom. I totally debated posting it here. But ta-daahhh! Not that I needed proof of how uncreative I've been lately. I'll make it serve as a personal reminder to push myself more. But hey, I was sick. So that's my excuse. A very valid one I might add!;P the end.

Just to say I have lived my life last week, I had my first studio photoshoot!:DD I must admit, even for that I didn't have the initiative. (un)Luckily, my friend Mica only knew me from photography and she needed help to make a set card for her midterms in aesthet. So tadaaah! 

One of the out takes of the test shots while waiting for the equipment *it was the first photoshoot for her too:

From the actual shoot, with invaluable help from Ame!:)

An outtake, 'cause the photos had to be "Fierce" which made me kind of sad 'cause she has such a great smile!:D *bad framing. ._.

A mistake that I loved:

Ohhh! Anddd I've been taking a photo a day for my proj 365! which of course I'm not proud of yet either.

Starting tomorrow:

Stop just listing and start crossing off my lists.

Blog more to keep me more accountable.

Be more creative.

Just experiment.

Fail.

Just live.

..& have fun.

*whooossshhhh.. :)