A Ribbon on My Finger

I'm among the people who experience to the extreme. I can be the happiest person on earth. Or I can feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. A few days ago, I was depressed. I was just down, frustrated, and very disappointed in myself. I wallowed in sadness all night but as always with hopes to get to a better tomorrow. As promised, I made sure to pick myself up and start over and just get better. I snapped a few frames.

I bought this ring that night as a symbol (or I could've just used depression as an excuse to buy it. I'm not really sure. ;P) that things will get better, that I hold the choice to make things better.. .. I tried to take the ring shot with my hand, but I don't have pretty hands. Maybe that'll be my next purchase. ;P

I'm still planning my next shoot, still deciding what props to use. Here are the colorful straws I've been collecting from my tea purchases. I'm pretty sure they'd come in handy for a shoot one day. hmmm!

Delicacies from Zamboanga! My mom, brother, & sister are finally here!!! A sure indication that things are really bound to get better!:)

The camera necklace my sister has been excited to give me!! Isn't it pretty?;D

I've missed shooting! I realized that the reason why I must've been really frustrated with shooting and my photography might be because I didn't know what I really wanted to shoot. We shot a lot last term to the point of feeling burned out (there was this particular subject.. with that particular prof. psfhalkfja!;P) At the risk of sounding cliche, I love using photography as a creative outlet of bits and pieces of my mind. I love the process of imagining photos in my head, rummaging through stores for the right props and costumes, preparing sets, cajoling models to do this particular post, or make that certain expression until everything comes together in that single frame. Sometimes I wish there was just a thought-visual image translator. But I guess that wouldn't be too pretty for some.. so I just really have to learn the props-set-schedule-fstop-aperture-iso language! whooo!

In other news, I now officially have a business card! yippeee! If you lift the phone, you find my details!:D I've passed this as a requirement for my Marketing Strategies subject. It still looks dead though.. will work on it..

Work in Progress

I must admit, I was immediately worried when we were told we were already supposed to present a portfolio for our midterms. And as if that weren’t enough, we were supposed to present one in front of a panel!!!

My hard drive quit on me last week as I prepared to showcase my portfolio for a dry-run last week. I was devastated. That obviously humbled down my portfolio even more. Luckily I would be able to present at least 15 photos, the minimum for this Wednesday. THIS Wednesday!!!!

I wasn’t always an artist. In fact, I consider myself a budding artist, a yet-to-blossom photographer ever willing to be nourished and nurtured with every piece of information and inspiration sprinkled on me. Thus the title of my cover image for my portfolio presentation: Work in Progress. (am still working on the title!;D)

I have yet to practice more, hopefully find the right outfit, and even better the photos I would present this Wednesday. I couldn’t really bring myself to even hope to Wow the panel for our presentation. My only wish is they find what I always seek to see in everything else: potential. *fingers crossed. :D

..some of my more recent works (since I last posted. :D)...

Shall I summon ze sickness bugs at least just till Wed night?;;D

Am Baaaccckkk!:D

I know. I know. I said I'd catch up with ze blog in my last post.. but butttt. finals came up.. and.. sleepless nights.. and projects.. and cups and cups of caffeine to survive.. and more projects.. and painting and drawing and designing.. and more and more projects. and totally burning out andddd..

oh well. that was last term. I don't think I've recovered from the stress. butttt oh wellll. moving on.:D

Ok. I must admit I had fun last term! I now like drawing! and want to really learn painting! I just got pushed to my very limit during the finals week. some of my final plates:

3 point perspective

4 pairs of eyes, and 4 each for lips, ears, and noses

self-portrait. :D *I don't really know how to shade yet. So karla fixed it (Thanksss karlaloo!:D)

our final plate. nude, rendered in pencil, ink and colored pencil. 

This plate weighed 50% of our final grade so I was pretty pressured about it. Thankfully I had a lot of friends to help me out. They gave me a guide to copy the shading from!:D I liked how it turned out, except for the ink part. I don't remember how I really ended up doing it, but thankfully karla(again! thank youuu Karlaloo) fixed it. :D

Before freehand, I've never really considered drawing. I thought it's either you've got the talent or you don't. And really, I didn't. But I did my plates! I passed them all! With some help, definitely, but I toiled and pushed myself for each and every plate(unless Karlaloo intervened.;P). wee! and now I'm just excited to learn more! maybe I'll try pirouetting next! or nose-twitching or maybe writing with my eyes closed! ;P

We had an exhibit for our finals in Visuali. I wasn't really proud of my works yet, but here they are:

for emotion. 

for architecture.

for nostalgia. 

Waaa! the dean asked for this photo to be part of the student "legacy". I don't remember what he specifically had in mind but he said it will be posted somewhere. and when I come back 10, or 20 years from now, I'll find it and get to point at it and say, "I did that!" weeee! I still get high when I remember it. yipee!!!\:D/

On that note, I'm getting ready for a new term!.. I hope. \:D/

Catch Up Olympics

This blog is just one of the things I have to play catch up with. Again. I'm dyinggggg... My plates are drowning me. I know I just won't make it if I don’t play the games asap. So here’s me convincing myself to just get up and do it. *whoooo!

My uninspired plate for desprin. X.x I had a funner, more colorful album design(that’s supposed represent us) in mind, but as I was doing it yesterday, color and fun just didn’t feel “me”. I chose the split complimentary color scheme. I should have used darker shades though. I wanted it to show how I'm too drained to be who I want to be. I know I could’ve done a lot more with it, but I didn’t want to risk ruining it. Great. Now, I'm playing safe. X.x waaa. I’m now slapping myself to cut the drama out. Still slapping. Still slapping. . . ….ok. done. Ow. My cheeks hurt.:P

All that’s left to do is keep moving forward. Let the catch up olympics begin!!! *fingers crossed I win.

If not, everdearestsodearever family, I hope you read this before my funeral. ‘cause I want you to tell everyone, if anyone would come that I don’t want flowers please. I want chocolates. Preferably dark. With almonds. Please. Thank you.

Break!. . . please?

I’d like to think life is finally about to catch up with me and my plates. But my sketchpads and bristol boards scream otherwise. --.

Busy. Busy. Busy. I don’t like that word. Draw! Paint! Design! Now, these works I(’m starting to really) like better. But for 5 different subjects, they just take too much time!! Making me . .Busy. Busy. Busy. That word again!._.

I’ve been pretending I was/were(?) a robot, that didn’t need sleep the past few days ‘cause I wanted to have time to slow down and think about my shots for my finals. but apparently that's not possible. the slowing down part at least. ._. No sleep. Pardon the robot lag/zombie mode. :P

I haven't really thought about my shots yet (am soo dead). But right now, what my mind is filled with isss…as an art school, why do we run on trimester??? Haven’t they ever heard that you can’t rush art? I mean really. I didn’t think I’d enjoy drawing and painting as much as I do. But it’s the load/week that weighs me down. Art is supposed to be fun.. but all the rush, minus all the sleep makes it seem like work, when it's supposed to be more of play. (Am I making sense?--,)

-ze robot's failed attempt at tessellation. ._. really must not rush art. Really should finish plates. Really need sleep. Really need a break.

ZzzZZzzzzzzzz.. 

Hey World! I'm 19!

I try to remember people's birthdays as much as I can. I love birthdays. I love it 'cause it's the one day I think you can really call YOUR day, well, at least the day that other people would usually recognize yours too. Why can't everyday be my birthday?;D

But the thing is it might be YOUR day, but it really depends on how the people who know and love you make it yours; how more than wanting to be part of the birthday treats, they simply just want to celebrate your day with you, hoping that in their own little way, they make you feel special. ..I'm so blessed!:D

I will post about my birthday tomorrow. For now,

*I couldn't find a solo photo of my 19yy self.. so here's my first plate as a 19yy!:D

Stayed up till about 5 to finish this but my professor didn't show up. ._.

Now, I think I'll have to repeat it. We're supposed to make a self-portrait using basic shapes and tonal values. ..I don't think I showed much shapes. The lines are more prominent. The BG doesn't count. It's just a means to cover up the mess I made on the BG.;P

ZzzZzzz..

Visuali Challenges 2-5

I still can’t get over it.. we don’t have an assignment in visuali for this week! It’s incredible!! I feel like we’re on a term break (even if I still have my other subjects to think about) with no images to visualize and readily capture to keep me on my toes. Weee! So in line with playing catch up with my blog, I’m posting images from previous assignments. *Doesn't "challenge" sound better than "plate?" :)

Challenge 2: lines

I spy a masterpiece by a certain 8-legged critter!

Challenge 3: Frame within a frame..

I just have the cutest friends and family ever..

spot the hidden mickey! (so not obvious!;P)

I wish I could fly.. :)

Challenge 4: Shapes through portraits of family and friends.. this was the toughest for me.. ._.I didn't think it'd be that tough 'cause I have very willing friends to model for me, but it was so hard to find a schedule that would match all our schedules.. Then on the day we were finally supposed to shoot, it rained. HARD. so I was so sad I didn't get the photos I wanted.. ..thank God for stock photos and very game friends despite the weather!!:D

We shot in school instead. Jump shots? CLASsic!

We resorted to candle light too. Thank youuu dearest room mates + Ana!:))

Ze cuties!!:)

Challenge 5: Color ..I've been looking forward to this week! I wish I could've done it better though. Why did it have to coincide with midterms week......

I've always wanted to be invisible..

Why don't they make gummy pandas??

I've had no choice but to start a collection of straws from all the boxes of milk I buy to go with my cereal.. I kept it 'cause I don't want it to just go to waste and I thought I might get to use it someway.. ..it's not much, but.. ta-dahh.. :P

FIN!!!

till NEXT week's challenge!!!\:D/

...And the countdown to my birthday begins!!! What to do.. What to do.. :D

Moi!

This is me(june something). I wonder what’s wrong with that mirror. I somehow look different in it.. look at those lips! ;)

Anddd This is me(07.06 or 07). I got the most awesome jet black big circles around my eyes finishing this, but I like it! Doesn’t it look human?!!!:D *I still don't know how to draw hair.. so the hair is courtesy of my room mate! ty hannah!:D

I’m really enjoying my freehand class. I’m learning!:D Mostly from youtu(be)-niversity.. it’s the best school ever! You can go whenever you want, pause/forward the prof's blabbering and even switch between classes! +you can mute when you don’t feel like listening! plus! it's free too! why didn't i just enroll there.. ;P


If i can draw (well.. super slight..), then anything's possible!:D

Visuali plate 1

The results!!!

             

                

Thanks to my assistants, ever-busybody Mrs. Potato Head and Agent Cheese Hair for assisting me in the shoot!

which to pass.. . ...